Posts Tagged ‘who you really are’

This explains as well as anything I have seen what is really going on. Yes – it is 1.5 hours, but if you are the least bit interested in finding out why we are here and what is going on, invest the time


I found myself very frustrated by not being able to describe what was going on. I felt like no one understood or cared about me and what I was going through. I lashed out multiple times to loved ones for no good reason. My friends staged an intervention (Rod, what is going on?  Is everything okay? You aren’t acting like yourself.).

I have always been proud my communication skills. I am able to describe things in a way that is simple and relatable. More importantly, in a way that I think the other person will best receive the information. I am very empathetic and can easily relate with a large amount of people. It is because of my ability to find common ground quickly and understand where a person is coming from, that I can adapt or shift as necessary to deepen a connection.

While celebrating our 30th birthdays on a long weekend with close friends, something happened that blew my mind and changed everything I thought I knew about my life. I felt God that day. I understood, somehow, that there was no distinction between me and everything else. In the weeks that followed, I found myself very confused about what had occurred and what that meant for me. In the 5 years since, I have strived to understand this better. I have read as many books and Blogs that I could find. I was trying to find a way to make sense of it all and to be able to effectively communicate that to those around me.

While it is still a work in progress, I think I finally get it and I think I can explain it. At least, I can explain it how I see it. There is no chance that I can convince a skeptic – nor do I want to. I was too for 30 years. Until I wasn’t. For others, I hope they can see themselves in me and my story. Life after all is the recognition that you are not separate from others. You are not separate from God either.

Ironically the words that I will use to describe my experience will be fully inadequate to accurately describe. These are the words that I think best describe my experience (so far).

You are God manifest as you. You are a reflection of God in your unique way. You are a snowflake that when in the middle of a blizzard forgets himself. You are a prism of light reflecting God. You are a fingerprint – unique unto itself, but only one of 8 Billion alive today. You are what you think you are. You are here on purpose and of your choosing. Your life is perfect. You have a choice at every moment. You are the sum total of your choices.

I can hear you now – “Those are nice things to say, Rod. They are nice to believe, but where is the proof? My 5 senses have come to the very logical and realistic conclusion that there is NO GOD. When we die, that is it. We only have 1 go around in this life and we have to make it count. We are entirely responsible for ourselves and our path in life. Many parents put their children at a disadvantage in this world due to poor parenting choices. I will make better choices for myself and my children. It is a shame that people waste their lives away.”

That is exactly how I felt for the better part of 30 years. It wasn’t until I had a few experiences (2 others since) that were outside our 5 senses that provided me a bigger truth than I knew before. It is these experiences that can’t be proven to a skeptic but contain ALL the proof I need to know these things to be true.

This has all occurred because we designed it to from our higher perspective. We have lived countless lives and will live countless more. Energy cannot be created or destroyed, it can only change forms. Is a drop in the ocean any less than the ocean itself? Are they not 100% the same thing? The only difference is one of perspective. It has been said that enlightenment is when the wave realizes that it is the ocean. We are, indeed, ourselves. AND we are All That Is. No separation. Only different perspectives.

I am moving into another chapter in my life and if the next 50 years of my life are anything like my last 5 years, I am in for an amazing adventure.